I just did something which as a child i swore never to do. I just broke up with my gf on phone. I feel like a terrible jerk right now. The feelings are justified yet i cant face her and tell her directly. I tried that once and i couldnt bear the consequences. Right now i am feeling empty. What i just did havent sank in yet. Although it wasnt a rash decision. I have done a lot of thinking so much so that i have been feeling guilty for the pass i dont even know how many days. I tried my best thats all i can say. I am sorry for hurting you kelly, i cant ask for your forgiveness. I will always remember the memories. Tomorrow will be a new day. Pls dont give up on love there is still a long way ahead for you. For now i think i will concentrate on my studies. Going to quit astro, going to go back to the loner i once was.
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
10:14 PM
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I see spiderwebs all over this blog haha. When was the last time i actually blog, let me see yup 22nd september. Thats like 2 weeks ago. Many things happened, lots of happy stuffs thats why u dont see me blogging cos i only blog to complain LOL. Been really really busy with school, maple and someone haha.
Sigh my 6 wks holiday has been cut extremely short to juz 1 wk. Everyday there is training, its much worse than school days. My practical skill totally sux. Sigh very demoralised by that fact as 90% of the paper is actually based on practical skills. Despite what our commander says about practical can be trained, i do not see any improvement at all. Sigh i juz hope this vtp pass quickly.
Maple!!! yeah i am addicted to it once again. Haha i am training a spearman now in bootes. Thats the main reason why u nvr see me online anymore this days. Some find it a waste of time, others find it childish, one person is jealous of it and many other things. But its my form of entertaintment. My goal is to reach lvl 50 by my bday, yet i am still stuck at lvl 49 with 19% and i am left with 49k only!! omg spent too much money on my shoes sigh.
As for that someone haha secret. Thats all for today pls visit my blog again nxt month wahahahah. Oh ya b4 i go think i shall write about my results haha.
I think this is my best results bah cos there is only 4 modules and i got 3 AD and 1 A. Yup A for practical cos i sux at it. ok back to maple wahaha. Anyone interested pls add nered at bootes
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
3:04 PM
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Haha many things happened dont exactly noe how it happened, juz know that it happened. Some how we went back to being friends, okay maybe a bit better than friends bah haha. Yup maybe i was too selfish, she needed time to heal so ya lets juz remain the way we are now. Dont feel like changing anything on my blog cos i am lazy haha =p. Kelly rmb to choose one who can give u happiness o. Doesnt have to be me . Its not that i dont have confidence in myself, but if the other guy is able to provide her with happiness and make her laugh, why not? Its juz that i am relatively new to rs dont have much experience haha. Dont want u to be too stressed up by rel problems.
Okay bah better update on what i have been doing the pass couple of days. Went to kelly's chalet on monday night. Thought it would have been quite weird but turns out to be alright. Her class mates were quite friendly and even if they offended me i didnt really notice. Pasir ris park is NOT windy at night, esp around 2. It was very humid and we took a stroll. Still had school the nxt day at 12 sigh.
Talking about school, guess what? 5 out of my 6 weeks vacation has been eaten up by wss again. Sigh anyway i would be spending my time at home playing maple which is not constructive. Theoreotically its supposed to be 9 to 4 everyday, 9 to 12 being theory and 1 to 4 being practical. However as we know that theory and pratcial is always different, i think i would be ending my lessons after 4 everyday. Ended my pratcial lessons today at 6 freaking 30. Haha Really feel like giving up, but no i will preservere bcos it is very good for my resume. I have to improve my pratical!!!
Okay all study and no play makes deren a dull boy. Yeah time to chiong my maple haha. I want to reach lvl 50 by the end of my holidays. Best if i reach 60 but with my busy schedule, dont think it is possible haha. Another goal of mine which is harder is to reduce to 40% Dont know what i am saying? its for me to find out haha.
Love and like is different. U all may not agree with me, but to me like is selfish but love is selfless. However love requires two people while like only requires 1 cos one sided love to me is no different from one sided like. I really enjoyed the time i spent with u cos u brought colour to my life. Oh ya 1 very impt thing, this is not an effort to gain sympathy or to score points!! haha okay maybe to score abit of points but once i write this u will know that i am trying to score ponts so u will deduct points haha. Okay think i shall end here b4 i start writing a long long essay about love crushes and likes. Thanks for reading my blog bye
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
8:44 PM
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haha very long nvr update already... Went out with my dear yesterday to chua chu kang yesterday, dont know what that place is called cause nvr go b4. Met her after my mpi paper at the "lao di fang". Hmm our secret place. Went to sake sushi for dinner, think thats the 2nd time i went there to eat bah. The food was delicious cause dear knew what to pick haha. At least i know what to order nxt time. After that sent dear home den went home myself.
Sigh my exams are almost over, left one last paper, the killer "AEM". Sigh wonder how i am even going to pass it. Going to need lots of luck. Am i destined to be ADless this sem? At least give me a GPA 4 pls! haha okay i am too greedy i shall juz accept whatever results i get work harder nxt sem. Ok thats all bah, will be going out with dear tmr haha have to start planning...
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
6:59 PM
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Went out with dear today to study, actually i am the only one studying while she was playing her com as her exams were over liao. Later we went for lunch(?) which was 2 soups and one potato salad. Dear no need to go on diet liao u are very miao tiao already, muz eat regular meal or else i will worried de o. After that sent her home and went home myself. Currently playing maple, going to study later at mac with si jun and junyang, gotta study more cos i didnt study much this morning haha. Okay back to my game, muz reach lvl 36 tonight. Wont be slping anyway haha.
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
6:24 PM
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7th september is a very special day o. Went partyworld with my dear dear, astro friends and her friends today. Something special happened haha. Happy things should not be written down but kept as memories so i wont say =p After singing, most of them decided to go back home so sent dear home. Dear dear i wont be like the rest, i will cherish u de. So heal now bah, i believe everything u say. Words cant express what i am feeling right now
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
9:36 PM
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Really enjoyed myself last night. Another special night for me to remember. Haha maybe i was acting kind of weird in the beginning cause i didnt know what to do lol. Come to think of it, felt kind of silly acting weird and stuffs, but after a while i kind of return to who i was. Many things happened later and.... haha happy things should be kept in one's memory. As long as u are happy, i will be happy. To chocolate: Let us jia you together bah. Dont care what others say, as long as u are happy thats all that matters.
Wanted to write so much more, but i better stop here.
li jun wei
take me to a place faraway.
11:07 PM
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